Yesterday

Yep, The Beatles!

Yesterday,
All my troubles seemed so far away,
Now it looks as though they're here to stay,
Oh, I believe in yesterday.

Suddenly,
I'm not half the man I used to be,
There's a shadow hanging over me,
Oh, yesterday came suddenly.

Why she
Had to go I don't know, she wouldn't say.
I said,
Something wrong, now I long for yesterday.

Yesterday,
Love was such an easy game to play,
Now I need a place to hide away,
Oh, I believe in yesterday.

Why she
Had to go I don't know, she wouldn't say.
I said,
Something wrong, now I long for yesterday.

Yesterday,
Love was such an easy game to play,
Now I need a place to hide away,
Oh, I believe in yesterday.

Mm-mm-mm-mm-mm-mm-mm.

As many of you know, yesterday marked the two year anniversary of Doug's passing. It came so fast. I miss him immensely and as I've said, it's become an easier form of hard. But that's not why I'm blogging today. I'm blogging for His goodness to us!

All along this journey God has shown us that He is for us and if He is for us then who can be against us (Romans 8:31)? The first year was rough and many a day was spent remembering what was lost; knowing that God was there made it easier to walk this path. During that first year we celebrated all the holidays and honestly felt a little 'off'. Also during that first year we celebrated what would have been Doug's 40th birthday. What I didn't know was that God had a marvelous plan (doesn't He always?!). Early that morning a good friend went into labor and my niece was born! She wasn't due for another two weeks I believe, but God knew that we needed joy that day, not only me and the kids, but our extended family as well. My Father in heaven showered me that year with many joys, her birth being the icing on the cake.

The second year was better; still felt 'off' at certain times, but knew He was ever near to us and holding us in His will. The first anniversary the kids and I (along with close family friends) went to an amusement park and had a blast. I had determined that it was going to be a good day...and it was! This year was a little different...the anniversary fell on a Sunday which meant that we got to go to church! When I talked to the kids about what they wanted to do that day, I made sure they knew that we would be in church that morning, missing morning service was not an option. I think once I made that decision God went a workin! But, let me back up, when I started asking them what they wanted to do for the 17th (about two weeks prior), they both looked at me questioningly and I realized that they hadn't been aware that the anniversary was coming up! Not that they don't miss their dad, because they do! But rather because their little hearts are starting to heal and heal in such a way that they know they can embrace what is put before them, remember their dad and know that God is with them along the way! SO, back to yesterday: God knew that we would need redemption for that day and boy did He ever give it! We witnessed five of our closest friends, four of which are children, get baptized and totally give their lives to the Lord's work! Talk about redemption baby! What better way to celebrate the loss of a live here on this earth than by celebrating NEW life! God is SO good!

He is ever near and with us...all of us! There is not one of His children that He isn't caring for RIGHT NOW! Proverbs says, "Trust in the LORD with all your heart, And lean not on your own understanding; In all your ways acknowledge Him, And He shall direct your paths" (Proverbs 3:5,6, NKJV). This, among many other verses, has been a strong tether to the Lord; I hold onto this verse as if it were my life line to my Abba Father.