Prayers...

I pray often. I like to say (stolen from someone else, not sure who though...possibly Joyce Meyer), "I don't pray for more than fifteen minutes, but I don't go fifteen minutes without praying". And today in my prayer time I was praying for my future...specifically my future spouse. You see, I believe God when He says things. His word says that it's not good that man should be alone (Genesis 2:18, NKJV); that what ever we ask in prayer we'll receive (Matthew 21:22, NKJV); and my favorite verse (probably my life-verse if I were to have one!), "For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the Lord, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope" (Jeremiah 29:11, NKJV).

So, I'm praying. As I'm praying I remember a book I'm reading by Stormie O'Martian called Just enough light for the step I'm on and I pray, "I lay this desire at Your feet and if it's not Your will for my life, take it". And after that I read today's Berean verse of the day that gets emailed to me every morning, "But the wisdom that is from above is first pure, then peaceable, gentle, willing to yield, full of mercy and good fruits, without partiality and without hypocrisy. Now the fruit of righteousness is sown in peace by those who make peace" (James 3:17 & 18, NKJV). Instantly I felt at peace. His wisdom is pure! And because I believe His word I know that I can trust when I read that His wisdom is pure first and THEN all the rest! So I can rest knowing that HIS wisdom is pure, that in this time of singleness I can rest in HIS pure wisdom.

I don't know what the future holds for me, but I know the future holder. I know that He promised me a future and a hope; I know that He'll never leave me nor forsake me; and I know that He hears my cries of loneliness and that He hears my prayers. I also know that I will marry again. I continue to pray both for my future spouse and that if it's not in His will to take that desire away. I've only been praying that way for a few days...but the desire is still there. But, I desire Him more....He is all I need.