A new day...

Today is a new day...and with it comes new revelation! I was on my way home today when I came to the realization that in order for me to begin this process of wholeness I've got to admit that there is a problem. Sometimes that means plastering it for the whole world to see, which is what I did. My Facebook status was as follows: I've been found guilty of being chronically insecure...my prayer is that soon I will be found guilty of being chronically healthy". And I posted it so that there was nothing to hide...so people would see that people falter, they're human, and really don't have it all together as it may seem that they do.

After I posted it I got an awesome vision: Imagine a courtroom, I'm the defendant, the Devil is the prosecutor, and God is the Judge. Yup, that same one that most of us have envisioned where the Devil is just persecuting us, naming every wrong thing we've ever done to the One who has the right to judge us rightly. Only this time I was countering, it was my turn to talk...and not out of defending myself (because I already have a Defender) but out of making sure the facts are straight. My counter? Simply put, "You, oh enemy, are the one who placed those there in the first place! Yes, I had the choice and I was making the wrong choices at first, but now that I am aware of just WHO put them there and HOW it has affected me, I give them back, they are NOT mine!"

And what song started playing as I started typing this? My song...the song that God gave me to remind me of just Whose I am...Divine Romance by Phil Wickham. I am His and He is mine...my life is chalk full of divine appointments and the rest of this life is no exception to that!

Hope you enjoy the song ;-)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hlsIwmtb0U8&feature=related

Beautiful things

Last week was a beautiful thing. I sat in my room and was met by may Savior in a very real way.

I've had this issue that I've been dealing with for some time. One of those things that you really want to just go away but for some unforeseen reason it won't. For me it wouldn't go away because my vision was skewed. My vision was skewed because I wasn't allowing the Healer to show me how to heal this situation. Once I gave up, fell on my face before His throne, I was able to see more clearly.

I was able to see what was hindering me, able to see the real reason I was hurting, and able to begin another healing process...a process many years in the coming. And how do I plan to accomplish this healing? By asking for prayer. Yes, it is a blind prayer as I am not going to give specific details, however I believe that the Holy Spirit will lead and guide those who are praying for me.

How else? By obeying! And this is where my vulnerability is just going to come out before I have the chance to stop it. I am no longer a coffee drinker and I plan to stay that way for a long, long time. You may be asking, "Why no coffee?" And the simple answer is because He told me not to drink it. The longer answer is because I want Him more than I want the coffee! He is worth more to me than what a little cup of coffee does or doesn't do for me!

On that note...I urge you all to seek Him, ask Him what you should be doing in order to grow deeper with Him...ask Him what may be hindering your growth and be willing to take the answers He gives!

Love and blessings to you all!